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You never let me get away with that though," she said with a tearful laugh. He walked xvideoscom over to her and pulled her into his arms. The difference xvideos brasil in their heights became nonexistent; she never would have guessed, but in his arms she felt protected and sheltered. And so loved. "Wait a xvide minute," Sinclair said with xvidio one of her mercurial shifts in mood, "I said I was a bitch and you actually nodded your head at me, what's up with that?" "What's up with that? I love you just the way you are," Christian said simply. "And if nothing else, tonight showed the truth of that thing Brodie's mother is always saying, 'tomorrow isn't promised to anyone'. That could be you or me in that hospital bed." "Christian, let's just stay here for awhile. xvideos teen Let's just stay here and be quiet." ************************************* Over the next few wwwxvideos weeks, Brodie recovered rapidly. Other than going to school, Jax never left his side. 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